Deni Daisy Jayes

heya
I haven't written on here in ages.
I've mobed school now to Loughborough. I think of you all the time now as it's close to you. I can see that weird kmining place from th road near my school. It brings back memories cus i saw tht wen we met n i saw tht wen i cme 2 visit u (lame i knw). I was tlkin to u th uva dy to 1 of my m8s n i was almost in tears. i miss u so much. I jus wish i cud c u more often, bring u presents n tlk 2 u mor.
I miss u
Love u
xxx

Eddie Swingler (Friend) Sunday midday

Trying to sort your life out really doenst work
You meet someone thats nice but then that all f*cks up
You meet someone else thats always really nice and makes you happy
Then someone comes and f*cks your life up by having ago at you when you've done nothing and you've never even met them before
When everythings just going good something goes wrong
I miss you DJ
:( x

Samantha Sharpe (Friend) 2 weeks ago

I know I left one yesterday, but yeah [I need to stop saying "but yeah"]

Nobody's Home reminds me of old times.
I've started listening to Avril again, ha
I seem to be listening to songs that remind me of, like I said, "old times" lately
The beginning of that song reminds me of Vampires Will Never Hurt You just before Gerard sings too.

Anyway, I'll leave the lyrics.
[What I can remember anyway XD]

Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way. She felt it, everyday. And I couldn't help her. I just watched her make the same mistakes, again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs.
Where she belongs.

She wants to go home. But nobody's home. That's where she lies. Broken inside. With no place to go. No place to go. To dry her eyes. Broken inside.

Open your eyes, and look outside. Find the reasons why. You've been rejected. And now you can't find, what you've left behind.

Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs.
Where she belongs.

She wants to go home. But nobody's home. That's where she lies. Broken inside. With no place to go. No place to go. To dry her eyes. Broken inside.

Her feelings, she hides. Her dreams, she can't find. She's losing her mind. She's falling behind. She can't find her place. She's losing her faith. She's falling from grace. She's all over the place.
Yeah.

Oh, she wants to go home. But nobody's home. That's where she lies. Broken inside. With no place to go. No place to go. To dry her eyes. Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside. Oh, yeah. She's lost inside, lost inside. Oh, yeah.






xxx

Poppy Gentleman (Friend) 2 weeks ago

I never put these headings on

There's so much you're gonna miss out on, DJ
And I guess, so much we are too
I even miss all the pointless "girl" talks
You're never gonna experience doing so many things
Good and bad
It's Loughborough Fair this weekend, and I just can't help but wonder what it would be like if you were there
Well, I should stop being all mopey
I want to talk to people about funny things that happened with you
Happy things, instead of such depressing ones.
But it's hard.
I think it might help though, in a way

Anyway, I'm not sure what else to say

I'll hopefully come see you again soon

xxx

Poppy Gentleman (Friend) 2 weeks ago

Deni Deni Deni

I was talking about you to Lizzie today. And, I mean it still hurts to talk about you, but, its easier to remember, and i was remembering the 'boyfriends' Hah. I was trying to list them all, but i lost count :P
See, that is what i miss. All the times when we sat on that stupid peice of grass that means so much to me now. "/ Gossiping and talking about boys and who we didn't like. Hah.
I feel like everything has changed, but not all of it is bad, but it's still not good. The only way to describe it is, its tainted because you're not involved. I know its probably naive, but i honestly, truelly believe everything would be 'better' with you around. I'm not trying to make you feel guilty, i never mean to, but its just how i feel.
-Worm dance-

Love you Deni x

Grace Halford (Friend) 3 weeks ago

Tonight, we fly away so high.
Our first full moon sky.

I'll breathe you in,
I won't let you down,
I won't hold you back,
I won't make a sound.

I know what scares you the most.

Being Alone,
Just like them,
Being Alive,
Feeling so... DEAD.

At least you'll have my... HEART.
You know you shine so bright.

Got a single Silver Bullet
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.
Got a single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.

Can you sleep at night,
If I hold you tight.
I won't let you go,
This feels so right.

Please don't leave this... TIME.

At least you'll have my... HEART.
You know you shine so bright.

Got a single Silver Bullet
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.
Got a single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.

Tonight, we fly away so high,
Tonight, We fly away.
You know the moon is full and,
I can't live without you.

Tonight we'll fly away
(Got a single silver bullet, shot right through my heart)
Tonight we'll fly, tonight...

Got a single Silver Bullet
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.
Got a single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive.

Got a single Silver Bullet
(Tonight we'll fly away so high)
Shot right through my heart.
(Our first full moon sky)
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.

Got a single Silver Bullet,
(Tonight we'll fly away so high)
Shot right through my heart.
(Our first full moon sky.)
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.

Tasha Holling (Friend) 3 weeks ago

Hello DJ (:
I don't write on here as often as I should and it's because [I know I keep saying this but you know xD] anyway it's because as soon as I start writing I get stuck for words. I don't wanna say anything incase it sounds bad. If you get me?
Somebody said to my best friend the other day
''I don't understand why you write on there, it's just like you're talking to a machine''
And it's true she bloody well doesn't understand, she doesn't know what it's like for us. And I guess writing on here is a comfort, as in feeling more close to you. And it is, although I normally go off feeling bad because I think I've said something that makes it sound like I'm having acomplete utter go at you for leaving. And I'm seriously not, like Heidi said ''It was your choice'' and it really was. That's why I think you were so brave, you really really where Deni
If there's any word to describe you [Millions!!!] I'd pick
''Amazing''
Anyway I feel I've blabbed on enough so I'll leave you with some lyrics

Silver Bullet - Hawthorne Heights [RIP Casey Calvert]

Tasha Holling (Friend) 3 weeks ago

Hai baby.
Yes I know I just left one on bebo, but I feel like writing to you on here too :)
Sorry if it seemed too 'happy' on bebo, it's just everyone seems to be having ago at you for leaving recently, although thats hypocritical of me to say that as I was like that too. But recently I've realised something. It was your choice baby, and no matter how much we all hate how you're gone, we can't change that. We're stuck to live with it. And whether we like it or not, we've learnt from this, to never take our friends forgranted, 'cause you were so amazing lovely and you still are. You'll always be in my heart.
I know we weren't close at the time you left us, but even if we weren't talking then, I'll never forget the days up your road with me you and Syd :P Hide and seek ftw!! :P
I do miss you Dee Dee. Didn't I used to call you that :L or Den.
LOL. Miss you baby, love you loads, will come to see you soon xxxxxxx Sleep tight xxxxxxx

Heidi Ritchie (Friend) 3 weeks ago

Deni Daisy Jayes

I love you so much and i would do anything to talk to you, you've missed out on so much and its killing me, i want you back and so does everyone. Sorry i havent been up to see you in a while, i've been abit busy and theres alot on my mind at the moment. There are days when i don't want to go on but i try my hardest coz i know what its done to everyone by you leaving, i wish you tried harder. Everyones changed so much since you've been gone, you probably already know that. I try not to write on here too much and waste other peoples time by reading this crap.

I miss you so much and i'll come and see you very soon.
Love you xxx

Samantha Sharpe (Friend) 3 weeks ago

I feel bad for leaving all these comments.
Not too sure why, but there you go
We've all had to grow up so fast
We should still be annoying people when we're childish and not even care
You can tell your family miss you so much.
I can't begin to think how they feel, you know
It was heart breaking seeing your mum crying in August
We just sat there, shocked I guess
I'm so glad Tash got up and hugged her, I just didn't know what to do! I'm hopeless.
I'm missing you more, lately. But I'm gonna try and stop myself from writing on these things as much, it's not healthy.
Deni, I just cannot wait for the day I listen to a song that reminds me of you, and when someone asks why I'm listening to it I can say;
"Because it makes me happy".

Poppy Gentleman (Friend) 3 weeks ago